She has always loved to read & tell stories, write & learn. Joy of life and curiosity are the fuel she rides on. Certain things were quite difficult for her, yet creative things were quite easy to spark the play within her; but she got lost along the way for a while, and she started chasing and competing with the world, always placed among the weirdos. She will recall that later in life. Today, she is following her own vision and has pulled it through against all odds.
In her youth, she knew hospital life better than the real one outside, on the street or among ordinary people. The communication and culture in these two worlds are quite different. She realised that the primary difference lies in empathy, gratitude, and caring for the sake of the other. Unselfishness. The one thing the world of people lacks to this day. She hopes to see it in her life.
The thing is, as she turned 19, she was better, and then she escaped—all that. The experience was too heavy and too much. She tried to escape being a weirdo. She looked just fine to everyone, and she studied, so she gained certain wits and skills. She worked relentlessly and overnight. She enjoyed life to the fullest and forgot to take care of her own health. Then, as she turned 28, she was suddenly stopped and got seriously ill. Still, she escaped once more and started working again. She was thinking she could outsmart her own body. She changed certain habits; biking, swimming and the gym were her daily routine. Still, she was smoking like a chimney and eating poorly, and the thing she was unaware of was the thing she would understand soon after becoming a mother.
The thing she was escaping, and which finally pushed her to get real and become real, was the anger always pushing her way over her limits and not drinking enough water. One cannot escape the lesson. Finally, she understood that she had to face the fact that her odds and cards were dealt just as they were supposed to be.
As a 3-year-old, she nearly lost her life in a car crash, and she didn’t know much about it until recently, when the family, for the first time, told her she was clinically dead, and they induced her into a coma state. She woke up the next day, on her 3rd birthday. Again, as a 9-year-old, she had a minor car crash and was flying once again. Many things were great because she was alive and kicking, but certain things didn’t go as well. She was angry, and every day the anger grew more.
Luckily, one day a good man entered her office, and with him the change began. Soon enough, she changed her priorities, placing health and joy of life before everything else. She stopped smoking and started learning how & what to eat properly, breathe and drink water. She thanked and said farewell to two old friends, a smoke and a beer. Just before becoming a mother, she began learning to be one. That experience thoroughly changed her, putting her back on the right track of responsibility. She finally switched to handwriting, handcrafting, shaping dough and making pasta just like her mother and grandmother. She started gardening, breathing, praying and singing. It is still therapeutic for her and for all around her. She finally started to learn how to chill & cool down a bit. She started creating new software within her, upgrading and updating ever since.
One morning, a silent thought opened a door to a forgotten garden. She started to write a story for her daughter. Her passion for writing grew stronger. Her daughter cheered her on, and her friends started recognising something she didn’t see before. As she found herself once again, she encountered teachers who nurture natural rhythm, all human senses, respect and protect the circle of life, and the human spirit. The most precious experience of working as a kindergarten teacher taught her valuable lessons in being practical while caring for toddlers, helping her to reawaken all her senses, and transform her old friend, anger, into the relentless power of goodwill.
She turned to an old idea from long ago that was so bright in her heart that it pulled through all the pain and helped her to tame the dragon within. Her brain works differently because of all the early cracks and drama. Yet, it has something good to give. Marvellous images started appearing, so she painted them as a child would, setting them to fly freely across the lands and oceans of the world to reach the Stars of the Universe. She is resolute in guarding joy and nature, playing with words and writing tales.